Dear God

I read this quote today (unknown) from a child's prayer:

Dear God,
I didn’t think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset You made on Tuesday. That was cool.


:)

sigh

Dear Mother-in-law,
Thanks for feeding my (previously untested) child shrimp while babysitting him last week.  Thanks for (not) checking with us about the menu change, even though you were there when I went over every detail of your take out selections with you and said they were all ok (except for limited amounts of the sweet & sour sauce because of the red dye added). 
You should be very thankful that he did not have a reaction of any sort to it.  I probably wouldn't have ever forgiven you for that.  Well, maybe I'd forgive you eventually, but there would be no way you'd get to babysit him in the near future over a meal time!
As it is, you're going to get specific instructions for food from now on!  Oh, and thanks for not cutting up his food either ... a nice choking hazard as well as now we have a fight to cut up his food now!
Your very unhappy Daughter-in-law.

disappointed

My dear husband decided to go to Greenland with his Dad for a work trip.  Which is all good -- in theory.
Lots of details were poured over and schedules rearranged and plans made for the boy and I while he was gone.
It took 3 days to arrange the air flights so that he will only be gone for a week.
And what happened today?
He messed up with the dates for the trip which now overlaps with a planned vacation with our friends and god-daughter.
Which makes me incredably sad and disappointed.

Things learned:  You still get the crying headache even if you fight back the actual tears from rolling down your face.  And double check on all the dates myself!

auditor

So, I got a call from our external auditor today.  The audit wraps up with the finance committee meeting on Monday.  He called to go over a couple of things before signing off on the work.
Note that he called *me for my opinion and approval ... not my boss (who incidentaly is a CMA).  He asked if I was comfortable with the adjustments they needed to make in policy.  (Note if "I" was comfortable, not the boss or the board of directors.)
You have no idea how that made me feel.  Sometimes, my boss can ... how can I put it ... put his "employees" in their place, and make sure they *know that he is in charge ... do you know what I mean?  (And preaches about teamwork on the side, but that's another post for another day.)  But to have the auditor, a respected expert in his field in the community, respect my view on things and choose to talk to me instead of the director ... my heart smiles.
He also commented that it was so good to have me back (refering to the mess of 2010 while I was out on maternity leave) and it was all in place, "like usual".
*smile*
I'm often quite stressed to have this document distributed and viewed by so many people.  It's represents 17 months of my work (i.e. all of 2011 plus 5 months of audit prep and followup) all condensed into one 15 page document.
But to have the positive acknowledgement of a respected outside source, it makes the process just a little easier to take.

catch up - in point form

Yes ... well ... it's been a while since I've been here.
What's been happening since April 3rd?
-- annual audit at work
-- bad cold (on my post-audit days off too!)
-- mother's day
-- music lessons with The Boy (he loves them ... and they sadly finish tomorrow)
-- gardening (ok ... weeding! ... hopefully plant this coming weekend)
-- adventures with The Boy on his tricyle and to the park
-- connecting with a new friend
-- planning summer vacations and work trips
It's been very busy!

too much work

I decided to do a quick vacuum of the family room this afternoon before The Boy's nap time today.
I was busily swishing the vacuum around when I was stopped by Boy who tells me "Too much work, Mommy", while shaking his head.
He stopped me not once, but twice to tell me this.
Vacuuming today?  Too much work.  Well spoken, my little one! :)

Plans

Jeremiah 29:11-14a

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you,” declares the LORD."

***
Thank you, Lord, for knowing where I'm going in life.  I pray that I will know Your direction and Your will for me.  Thank you for loving me!

Faith

We read this passage this morning at devotions ... it spoke to my heart.  It seemed like it was written just for me today.  Thank you, Lord!

Hebrews 11:23-27
"By faith Moses’ parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king’s edict.  By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter.  He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin. He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king’s anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. "

Never want to let him go!

It's been a tough week.  One of those experiences that makes you want to change your life.

Caleb ... I never ever want to let him go.  I want to always be with him, experience his highs and lows, watch him grow ... but always protect him from the bad things in life. 

But letting him go means trusting.  Trusting God to fully take care of him.  After all ... He can do it better than I can, right?  Right!

It's True

God is good ... all the time!
All the time ... God is good!


***
Goodbye, Meghan ... rest in His arms.

blah!

Dear stomach bug, Please go away and leave me alone!
Thank you,
The one who is tired and weak and has too much to do to be sick!

home alone ... sort of

For the first time in 3 weeks, I'm home alone with The Boy.
My parents are heading home today.
I find myself excited to have my house back and to be able to do what I want ... when I want ... where I want again.
*sigh of happiness*
Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful that my parents could come and help out while I needed time to recover from my foot surgery.  But 2 extra adults in this small house when I'm not feeling 100%?  It got to be a little too much.
The Boy will hang out with his babysitter this morning and I'll putter around and read for a bit with my foot up until lunch time.  Then we'll have some Mommy and Boy time before he goes for his rest.  I think a nap might be nice for me too (in my favourite napping spot which is hard to use with company in the house).

evening

It's now evening. 
The Boy is finally in bed and hopefully will be asleep soon.  He was so tired it was hard to deal with him by myself.
DH is back at work with a project that needs to be completed today.  I miss him.
My parents (the visitors for 3 weeks now) are watching Jeopardy in the family room.
I'm trying to gather energy to make it until bedtime.

Tomorrow the stitches come out of my foot.  Yay!

Hiding

I don't like hiding.
But, I feel like I am.
My son is supposed to be napping.  I'm trying to be quiet.  But my visitors are not.  They are being loud.
So, to prevent my tongue from bleeding, I'm hiding.

Hiding again ... in my bedroom ... with the laptop ... listening to the not-quietness-of-my-house.

Friday?

I had a rough night ... I didn't sleep much and today I'm on the edge.
On the edge of screaming
On the edge of breaking down and crying
On the edge of getting in the car and driving for hours
On the edge of hiding in my bedroom and not coming out.
I'm tired.

Update:  I'm in my bedroom ... hiding ... with the laptop.  Maybe I should have a nap!

NO!

The Boy has a serious case of the NO!'s this week.
I've been on modified activity since having a screw taken out of my foot 2 weeks ago.  And I think that it's getting to the Boy.
Poor little guy! 
I'm looking forward to things getting back to "normal" very soon!

Recovery:day1

is it?

It is wrong that I get angry when DH makes plans without even talking to me about it?
Like agreeing to being involved in a radio station installation with his Dad that would require 2 weeks vacation time (out of the 4 he gets in a year), 2 weeks of me being a single parent (and 2 weeks of nights of not sleeping), 2 weeks of no contact with him (which makes me very sad), oh and about $3500 (more than I get paid in a month).
Not to mention that he neglected to remember that we are supposed to make decisions together?  This isn't just a "going to play hockey with the guys on Saturday" decision!  It's a big deal!

sleep or no sleep

I headed to bed at the usual time last night ... 10:30.  I snuggled in and read for a little while, then plugged in my usual headphones to listen to radio theatre and drift off to sleep.
But, for the first time since before I was pregnant ... maybe 3 years now ... I couldn't sleep.  I wasn't stressed about anything really, so that wasn't it.  Just could.not.fall.asleep. 
I read until about 1am ... then tried really really hard to sleep.  I guess it finally happened at 1:30ish.
I'm pretty sleepy now!
*plus only 11.5 working days until my foot fix...ack!*

sleepytime

So, the last 5 times I've put the boy to bed he wants the "{name} going to sleep song".
Now ... there's no such song!  But, he really wants it, so I make up a song about the boy getting in to bed and snuggling with his stuffed animal friends and closing his eyes and dreaming about Puppy and Baasley (his favourite stuffed animals) doing fun things.
After I'm finished my silly little song, I kiss him on his cheek and say "Go to sleep now, bebe."
He replies with "night mommy, go now mommy".
Ah, my little boy is growing up!

Welcome 2012!

What will 2012 bring?  I can't wait to see!
I hope it will be a fun year with lots of adventures with the boy and DH, bring us happy memories.